最近就是非常不修边幅，情绪异常稳定，完全不在意同事看法，法语就算说很快错很多也没关系。因为我太累了，the commute and lack of sleep just numb my nerves. 这样的一个好处就是直接改掉了我overprepare的毛病。I don't need further preparation and self-doubt, I have been working hard and I trained myself for so long time. I can improvise and I am always READY