最近生病了，感冒，等病好一丢丢发现账号限流了，播放量变成1w左右，看完焦虑然后又变得更重了，拉稀呕吐发烧，又昏睡了几天，今天像点人形。
麻麻要来照顾我，我说没事，我不吃药，纯硬挺。以前觉得只要我心态年轻，那么我的身体就是年轻的。这次生病发现，身体不会骗人，确实不如二十出头能挺了。
昏睡的几天，没事刷刷视频，然后喂猫喂狗，又躺下了睡，刷视频，总会刷到东北以前过年，大家坐在炕上。配文是原来幸福很早以前就有了。确实啊，那时候真的太小一点不懂得。
所以现在，我真的只想过好现在，什么都不想了。
To be present
like that's that's what I tell myself every day to just
enjoy what's in front of you
and see what's in front of you
not that
was something that was in your past
or something that's gonna happen
just like try to embrace everything
that goes on around in your day
and it could be like the smallest things too
so to live in the present