等三天.

I have deleted everything.

今晚我決定：
· 我不会再为了一个男人哭
· 我不会再跟人在Weibo谈话
· 我不会再给我的心给别人
· 我不会再有假的希望因为是一个fantasy
· 我不想再失眠
· 我不想再头痛因为我个心有壓力
• 我会给自己时间来休息
· 我会爱自己多一点

我其實有能力可以自己一个人. 今天我客人跟我说， “You are more than capable, you are enough and have so much to offer and so much love to offer that you forget to love yourself. If any man needs to validate that, he is blind and doesn’t deserve your love.”

她是一个心理學家. 她说她很明白我的心. 她知道我是个很心底善良，很喜歡照顧其他人，但是很容易忽略自己. 事情有幾痛苦，有幾困難，有幾對我不好，我都會很願意去做.

So today, I will allow myself to cry and feel brokenhearted. I will allow myself to feel pity and stupid. I will allow myself to feel anger and disappointment. Tomorrow, this will be a closed chapter.

I am going to allow myself a chance to take it day by day and will take a break from writing my vent sessions - but write for the sake of loving to write.